*WEIGHT RESTORED * Crushing Ana *
I will be posting my intakes, ups, and downs. <3 Glad to share my journey with anyone who follows :) I am here for any questions, and i will be open and honest to anything so don't be afraid!
To all those
That think quasi is the answer to their lives
That feel like they’re doing just fine
And are convinced they’re happier than they ever could be
Were they to fully recover
Your disorder is lying to you
Because we all know that
When your jeans feel that freshly washed tightness
Or you’re invited to that unplanned party
With unplanned people
And unplanned food
When the portion on the container
Of your newest challenge
Is so small it makes you cry
Because you know it won’t even touch the sides of your stomach
But doubling it is out of the question
Because have you seen the fat content?
And that deep inner sadness
We all know too well
That comes from staring at those photos on tumblr
Of those perfect, tanned and THIN girls
Living their colourful and frivolous lives
Or heck even those on Facebook
Of the friends that were once yours
Out and living
In Burger King at 3am
Drunk as skunks and high as kites
With smiles on their faces
Wider than yours has ever seen,
Or at least since you got sick
So I hope having read this
You put the scales
Or the tape measure
Or whatever is controlling you down
And take you first breath of freedom
And pour that unmeasured bowl of cereal
Or glass of wine
As you embark on your endeavor
To rediscover your soul
It will be hard
You may gain weight
But you will glow
Like a 6am summer sunrise
And laugh with the tunefulness of a
You will be part of the 3am Burger King runs
Too drunk to stand up
But most of all
That screaming that’s been in the back of your mind
For as long as you can remember
Will finally quieten down
This will be your final battle
And you will be victorious
I just did one! Haha coincidence or what?
Hi sweetheart - hm, okay.
This will be a slower process but you have to ween yourself.
Start off by eating by yourself when your mother is home. Sit it a different room.
Next time, when she is out challenge yourself to eat snack whilst texting her back and forth.
Then text her once at the beginning and end of meal whilst watching TV.
Then BAM! You’ve got it!
I’m so proud xxx